When the birth of your first child can begin any minute, it is not really a good time for insomnia, though it is understandable I suppose. I have been having trouble sleeping for the past week. I suppose it's a lot of anticipation, but it's also a lot of feeling like I still have so much to do to prepare myself for caring for an infant.
Rather than lying in bed staring at the ceiling, well, wall really since I have to sleep on my side, I got up to do a little reading. I figured that would put me to sleep. Nope. Then, Pawncho wanted to play, so we played a game of hide and seek. I always win because he always hides in the guest bathtub. It was a fun game nevertheless. Since I was still pretty awake, I figured I'd add one more blog entry.
I am beginning to wonder if Genevieve just wants to be a Leap Year baby. She's already shown us that she wants to be different from 96% of babies by being breech. Why not be different by only having a birthday every four years? If she doesn't come soon, I'm sure we'll have to schedule a c-section considering I am now 41 weeks and 1 day pregnant. We are about out of time, and I was really hoping for that itty, bitty chance of her turning in labor. Again, I realize it's a long shot, but I still had some hope. J and I went for a good walk/hike early Sunday evening. It was pretty nice out and almost too hot. I got to see some rabbits, a chipmunk, and lots of quail. I thought about how exciting it will be to see those things through Genevieve's eyes.
Genevieve is moving around quite a bit right now. One minute I can feel her head to the left of my belly button, and the next minute it seems to move to just above my belly button. When I was reading earlier, her head seemed to be more on the right side of my abdomen but still slightly above my belly button. I wish she would just move that head much farther down! Tonight we listened to some music together until the battery in my Zune died. I had one ear bud in my ear and one ear bud down low on my belly. Unfortunately, we only got to hear two songs before the battery went dead.
I was having a sad day today. I'm having a difficult time finding excitement for the birth of my daughter, and this hurts my heart fiercely. I am really having to work to keep my anxiety at bay and not let it overshadow the miracle that is about to take place. J suggested I make a list of all the things for which I am looking forward. That's a good idea. That will be my project for tomorrow.
Hang on a second...Pawncho is running around like crazy. I think he may be spooked by the wind outside. I'm going to go chase him or at least figure out what he's doing.
Holy guacamole! The cat scared me half to death! I'll have to add a picture to this post soon, so you can see where he was. I was not expecting him to be on the counter as I turned the corner. It made for a fun game for a few minutes though. I think he's still sitting on the counter. Anyway, where was I?
I guess I should wrap this up and try to get some shut eye since the clock just struck midnight. J will be getting up in about 4 1/2 hours to drink his protein shake and go work out with his trainer. Tomorrow will be a better day.
Have no anxiety at all, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. Then the peace of God that surpasses all understanding will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. ~ Philippians 4:6-7
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