Monday, September 17, 2012

Random Thoughts

I should be going to bed since I can barely keep my eyes open at 8:53 PM, but I have a lot on my mind.  Maybe if I write them down, then I can sleep peacefully.

1. I want to punch teething in the junk.

2. Grocery shopping is depressing.

3. Genevieve has such a silly personality; we have a lot of fun together each day.

4. I don't want to go back to teaching.

5. I want to go back to teaching.

6. I had such a huge fear of babies choking, but I am slowly overcoming my OCD about that.

7. Jeremy takes G to Starbucks every Saturday for a couple of hours.  They watch the birds and visit with the baristas and strangers that approach.  I love this time.  Usually I do chores; once I took the time to blow dry and flat iron my hair, and another time I went to Hobby Lobby.

8. I desperately want to be crafty, but I'm really not.

9. The Mom's group I joined is filled with some great women who lift my spirits each week.

10. Every time I have prayed for Genevieve's hiccups to stop so that she may eat and find rest, they have stopped within seconds of saying Amen.  That might not make you a believer, but it surely solidified my believe in Jesus and the intercessory work of his mother, Mary.   (p.s. I don't pray every time she gets hiccups, but this has happened enough times that there is no way it's a coincidence.)

11. Being a mom is hard.

12. Being a mom is easier than I thought it would be.

13. I really want some pizza followed by ice cream, but my tummy might hate me if I do that when I'm ready to reintroduce dairy.

14. Genevieve would not let me put her down in the bassinet last night after her first wake up.  I had to rock her to sleep in the family room like I used to do months ago.  After failing to get her to sleep in the bassinet once again, I laid her down on our bed where she happily drifted off to dreamland.  She hogged the bed all night.

15. Before I had Genevieve, I didn't think I would ever co-sleep/bedshare.

16. I dearly love bedsharing, but I also like that Genevieve starts the night in her bassinet.

17. We are meeting with Genevieve's therapists tomorrow.  I hope they recognize the progress she's made, but I also hope that it's not so much that they greatly scale back her therapy.

18. I really want to place an order with a wholesale company that sells girls clothing and accessories, but they are out of stock on almost everything I want!!!

19. I love being home for Genevieve's firsts.  I would hate to have missed any of these moments with my angel.

20. Though I get misty eyed thinking about not having had a natural birth, I don't really get misty eyed over the fact that I had a Cesarean birth.  I wish I could've had amazing birth photos and a different experience with my husband and our daughter, but the experience I had was positive on so many levels.  I now wonder if other women are getting to do skin to skin with their babies in the OR because of me.

21. Before Genevieve, Pawncho was my baby.  Now I sometimes want to kill him.  Those times usually occur if I am worried he'll wake the baby...like last night.  I finally got her to sleep, and he gets on the bed and starts meowing and walking up and down right next to the baby!!  Seriously cat?!

22. I like Pampers diapers.

23. My husband is a good man, but he is still a man.

24. When I think about the one that got away, I am thinking about the scorpion in my garage last week.

25. I love breastfeeding, but I wish I had been able to build up a supply of pumped milk.  I haven't needed it, but it would be nice to have a little stored.

26. Final thought - why does my stomach always start to growl when I am ready to go to sleep?  I guess I'll grab some grapes before I make my way to bed.

5 comments:

  1. #1....Wal Mart Brand diapers are great once she get's past the size 2 diapers
    #2....Co Sleeping is awesome...until they are 3...at which time they hog the bed and there is no getting away from the little rug rats no matter how hard you try :)
    4....Cherish the times that she doesn't want to be put down. Now that Sarah is 3 she doesn't want to cuddle near as much as I want her to!
    5....Men..no matter how good they are...are always still men...that's why God made women.
    6....Cherish every minute you are away from your daughter...in doing so you cherish most of the moments you are with your daughter.

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  2. #20. I feel that way as well. I don't regret the c section at all, but I also miss the feeling and bonding experience of laboring, however it was such a different bonding experience with the cesarean.

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  3. Catherine, good to know about the Wal Mart diapers. We tried the Target ones, and aren't even going to finish up the box. They were horrible!
    I love how you say "you cherish MOST of the moments you are with your daughter." Spoken like a true mom! :)

    Jen, I agree about the different bonding experience. I think that since I couldn't move around so well, J naturally had to step up and do the diaper duty and a lot of holding. I think it helped them bond more.Glad you are good with the c section. It can be hard to overcome such a drastic change in all of your plans.

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  4. text me...we can do lunch one day during the week or take 2 little babysitters along if its a weekend...623-363-9174

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  5. Debbie, is that you? I would love to get together one day during the week, but I don't think I can do lunch out. :( Genevieve has too many food intolerances, so I am on a very restricted diet.

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